Saturday, October 30
i realise i've lost track of time. i talk about 'tomorrow's and 'yesterday's that simply existed in another time frame. wonderful. what happened months ago is clearer than yesterday. but i remember the curling iron from yesterday. hmm. my father's playing his favourite song on the piano. when i heard the tinkling notes wafting upstairs just now, i suddenly felt about five years old. he still plays it exactly the same way. i never learnt how to play that song though. don't even know its name. maybe i will learn it after 19nov. counting time by heartbeats, it's impossible to know the position of the hands of the clock. i'd rather trace my life by the waxing and waning of the moon.
ever heard of 'the homecoming'? it's very familiar somehow. it's one of the new pieces i'm playing. but i don't know where it came from, what movie or even era. played 3 hours of piano today, counting lesson. and 2 mins of guitar. hahaha. still can't figure out the autumn in my heart thing, so i take out my father's guitar every now and then to practice. i'm going to learn how to play it! the whole song, not just a few bars. without damaging my nails. maybe a coat of enamel will protect them. hehh. it's not just that chris is very influential, i really am bothered by the state of my nails. you don't have to look at your face but you have to look at your nails.
and i just discovered my father can play that song! the one jean taught me.. only he can play almost the whole thing i think. it's called romance d'amour or smth. apparently it's super old. no wonder i thought i heard it somewhere in my past, even before watching autumn in my heart. and i'm gonna learn it! =D it's so beautiful. i love beautiful things. even though i'll forever look funny holding a guitar. i play songs for myself, not anyone else so i don't care.
it must've been love.
8:15 pm
xoxo
